Been busy....

A few weeks ago my brother moved into his own apartment that he will be sharing with the lovely Chelsey after their wedding in a few weeks.  And since space was tight here at my parents house his bedroom was the downstairs living room. When he moved out it freed up some space for the girls and I to have a living room. So I got to work and gave it a fresh coat of paint and then started turning it into our own space. 

My little "library" it is growing so quickly lately. There are so many to read still. But I have 2 awesome bookshelves ( I still need to get them finished) that hold all my lovely reads. 

I finally figured out how to hook the TV, Wii, and Satellite up to the surround sound.. I still can't get the "surround" speakers to work but hey ... progress is progress. And I am sure that someday I will figure out how to hide all of the wires that are going every which way. 

My Couch 

The amazing "vintage" rocking love seat that is full of so many memories with my Grandma, I am so grateful that I was able to be the one to get to keep this wonderfully hideous chair (someday it will be covered) 

My brother and I were talking about how ridiculous it is to have so many remotes to control everything.. It gets a little confusing, especially for the girls. 

This is a picture I bought my self the day I was fired. Anyone who knows me really well knows that it speaks volumes to me and the things I need to change about my self. 

And here is my dress for the wedding in all of its glory... Oh you noticed that its strapless too did you.. well yes... apparently they don't make formal gowns in that blue color with sleeves or straps of any kind.  It's a good thing we are all suppose to have white sweaters to wear with our dresses... because I can guarantee that no one want's to see me in just the dress by it's self.. But at last I have found a blasted dress.

lost

   /lɔst, lɒst/ 

–adjective

1.

no longer possessed or retained: lost friends.

2.

no longer to be found: lost articles.

3.

having gone astray or missed the way; bewildered as toplace, direction, etc.: lost children.

4.

not used to good purpose, as opportunities, time, or labor;wasted: a lost advantage.

5.

being something that someone has failed to win: a lost prize.

6.

ending in or attended with defeat: a lost battle.

7.

destroyed or ruined: lost ships.

8.

preoccupied; rapt: He seems lost in thought.

9.

distracted; distraught; desperate; hopeless: the lost look ofa man trapped and afraid.

I am trying to be positive. I am trying to figure out what I am going to do now. but really all I feel is LOST. 

Brain Dump- The numb version

I figure that since I have ignored my blog for so long and have all sorts of new found time I should blog.

I love teaching, and today they fired me for a bunch of no good reasons. I'm sad. I'm hurt. I'm confused. My direct boss didn't know about it and she is just as upset as I am. But I don't want to dwell on it right now.. maybe later.

Last night I stopped by my cousins house to drop of a shower invitation. My cousin and her husband do foster parenting. They are amazing people, very loving and giving. When I stopped by I was reminded that they have 2 new foster kids right now. A little girl who is 18 months and a 2 week old boy.  The little girl is a doll she is beautiful. As my cousin explained that the case worker is pretty sure that she spent 90% of her time in a stroller and who knows what else.. She is tiny, in the 1 percentile for growth, they were both removed under the label "Failure to thrive" I smiled at this little angel and she smiled back. J told me that if I held out my hands she would come to me. So I did, She instantly cuddled in to me just content as can be to be held and loved. It broke my heart. She doesn't walk, talk or eat anything other than baby food. I have been thinking about it ever since. It takes a lot for a child to NOT thrive. Even a child put in front of the TV most of the day will still thrive. That poor little soul has by no choice of her own been given trials to deal with that seem unfair. It makes me ANGRY.

It's Valentines Day. I don't have a Valentine.... Oh well it's a good thing life isn't about having a Valentine. I guess I do have an UnValentine..so I guess its just a friend who is a friend just like any other day. LOL

Bailey... I don't know where to start with this child. I really don't know if it is just her personality or if she really doesn't know how to learn. But she isn't doing very well in school. It kills me, I don't know how to help her.

Laira, she is still super smart. She seems to be a little down some days and that worries me. She did tell me that she doesn't have any friends. But then later told me that if her friend K isn't there then she just chases boys. Hmmm I don't know how I feel about that either.

My brother is getting married. I really need to find a dress. I am doing the flowers, which will be a lot of fun. I miss working with flowers all the time. I was reminded how happy and fun flowers are today when one of my students received  a delivery in class today.

Well I need to go pick the girls up from school. I'm sure I will be writing a lot more now that I have the time. Maybe I will even work on the stories that so many of you have asked for... perhaps its time to dust off the Storyteller's blog.

Send me some love today... I could sure use it.