lost

   /lɔst, lɒst/ 

–adjective

1.

no longer possessed or retained: lost friends.

2.

no longer to be found: lost articles.

3.

having gone astray or missed the way; bewildered as toplace, direction, etc.: lost children.

4.

not used to good purpose, as opportunities, time, or labor;wasted: a lost advantage.

5.

being something that someone has failed to win: a lost prize.

6.

ending in or attended with defeat: a lost battle.

7.

destroyed or ruined: lost ships.

8.

preoccupied; rapt: He seems lost in thought.

9.

distracted; distraught; desperate; hopeless: the lost look ofa man trapped and afraid.

I am trying to be positive. I am trying to figure out what I am going to do now. but really all I feel is LOST.