Today would have been my 8 year anniversary.
Now I started to let this pull me down into that dark corner of my self. Do you ever have moments where you feel like that scene in Lord of the Rings where Smegol and Gollum are arguing with each other but really its just an inward battle?
I had one of those myself today, and this is sorta how it went.
Smegol: Wow it has been 8 years
Gollum: Yes and 6 of those years have been lonely and terrible
S: Not everything has been terrible, there have been a lot of great times mixed in with the bad, its the balance of life.
G: Your life didn't have to be like this, he is the one who chose to leave, to break up the family. He deserves the unhappiness and you deserve to be the one in a fulfilling relationship.
S: Its not my place to wish unhappiness on anyone, My time just hasn't come yet.
There is a lot more that could be said but really I chose to take the good road. The one that is far less traveled by myself. I spent some quality time with my chickadees and listened to my "feel good" playlist on iTunes and it did indeed make me feel good.
I am happy, I am progressing and I do know that in the Lords time things will happen the way they are meant to. Until then I will continue to try to take the good road until it's the far more traveled.
And for you my friends some of my feel good music!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE Mindy Gledhill, not cause she is a friend of mine but because her music is so powerful.
6 comments:
Denae, I have been a lurker to your blog off & on for sometime now. I always hear things about it from other people and then have to come check it out. So I am coming clean and leaving you a comment.
I am happy you are taking that road less traveled. We should all follow your example and follow its brighter path more often. And no, it hasn't all been bad and you have the 2 most beautiful reminders of that.
Denae good girl. This is the Denae that I know. The higher road can be lonely at times but the reward is far greater then the road traveled by more and is just spoils at the end.
There's some major chocolate at the end of the less traveled higher road! :D
Denae, I just want you to know that you inspire me! I'm so grateful for your positive outlook.
I am so glad you didn't listen to those dark voices today! Sometimes it can be so hard, but your wise, rational voice definitely had the upper hand! You are awesome girl!
everyone needs a "feel good" play list and they need to use it!
Denae, I love your blog because you always have something heartfelt and thought-provoking to read. Thanks for your insights, experiences, and GREAT advice! Love ya!
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