Bailey's Hair Cut!

Bailey decided she needed to cut her own hair, These are pictures of when I told her that we were going to have to go see Emily and she was going to have to cut her hair.



Thankfully it wasn't as bad as I thought, She just has bangs and some layers on the sides of her face now. She was calling them 'veins' for a while so I had to tell her it was bangs, like the sound a gun makes.

It makes her looks so different.. so grown up.. my little baby is getting so big.

and the answer is.....

Cowboy sign contest.

There is no prize for this contest, but its fun anyways.

Every time we drive down 8th North in Provo Laira asks me what the Cowboy sign means. She has done this for months and I always have to tell her that I have no idea what she is talking about because I can never see said cowboy sign.

Well today I found the sign and laughed for probably 10 minutes.

So the contest is, what is your guess as to what the Cowboy sign is?

I will post the answer later today (since its almost 2am)

EGD

Do you know what an EGD is? its an esophagogastroduodenoscopy doesn't it sound fun?
I really wouldn't know cause I had some Propofol or milk of amnesia as its also called. All I know is that when I wake up it makes me cry, a lot.

Still no answers, and as every test become more and more invasive I am worried that I am going end up standing naked in the middle of the hospital where anyone who wants to will get a chance to 'perscribe' a new test and hopefully figure out what is wrong with me.

MRI

Did you know that MRI stands for Mostly Really Intimidating? or that could be the Valium talking. Yes I survived my MRI, being strapped down to the table arms and all wasn't the greatest experience. But I did learn that I am a champion breath holder, even while medicated. I have no idea what they found or didn't find. I just know that I have more tests scheduled and will hopefully find out the answers to my questions.

But really I am just to the point where I don't care what they find I just want it fixed so I don't hurt anymore.

good times.

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Update

I just talked to the Dr's office.. everything was normal.. bah!

this gets me through hard days.

Full plate

Well I think God decided to throw me a curve ball. Since I was always feeling bad that I was bored and didn't have stuff to do he decided to give me lots to do.

I have the usually stuff that I do every day like be a Mom and the stuff associated with that.

Now I have added some random medical problems that make it hard to work, but I am excited to see a specialist to hopefully get this taken care of.

I am also on the Committee for my 10 year Reunion! It has been really fun to get reacquainted with old friends. I am excited to be a part of making this happen.

I know its just a small update and not alot of details but I dont really know what else to share.

Look what I found in the Flower garden....

HOPE!

Let's give them something to blog about.

So I am getting a lot of flack lately for not blogging. But when you have nothing in your life to blog about that is to be expected. I keep hearing "there are always things to blog about" and I suppose that is right. But I just assume that people don't want to hear about the mole that was removed from my boob, the fact that I have 3 loads of laundry that I just don't want to fold and how I spend all my time working and then trying to catch up on the sleep I missed.

I so wish I could blog about some of the things that happen at work, I have some amazingly disgusting and hilarious stories. But because of that HIPPA law I can't talk about any of it. I suppose I could still talk about it but then I would lose my job and that wouldn't be fun at all.

I suppose there are some small things that have happened but they don't necessarily need their own blog post.

Like:

I've given up soda, some days I love this and some days I would just love a glass of Ruby Red Squirt or a Cherry Pepsi from Crest. (hmm maybe today is a I want soda day) I have lost 10 pounds since quitting, I have been drinking a lot more water and I feel all around healthier.

I have been working out. I haven't established a routine yet its still sorta hit or miss but I am doing it.

I have filed my taxes and no I didn't conform and announce this in a status update on Facebook.

My best friend is getting married.

The kitchen has been ripped apart. Those who know my family at all know that we are "do it ourselfers" My parents and my Brother built the addition on our house with the help of our neighbor who is a contractor. Well now comes the kitchens turn. I came home from work Saturday morning and the Kitchen cabinets were all in the dining room and half of the ceiling was ripped off, Good times. I am sure that my Mom will post stuff about it on her blog.

The momentous event occurred and we moved my Aunt and Uncle into their new house.

Laira is a goof and Bailey is a sass..nothing new there.

Hard things, Part 1

A lot of things have been going on this week, and most of them are hard things.

My was-band's Grandpa passed away. Grandpa West was an amazing guy. He was always so full of love and kindness for everyone. He was funny too. All of his daughters have L names and all of his sons have D names. He called me Lynae for a long time and would always explain to me in great detail why he got so confused. He taught me a great lesson when Bailey was blessed. He was the only man on my ex's side of the family to stand in the circle and bless her. He knew it was an important thing for her, it wasn't about B or I and our divorce, or who was wrong or who was right. It was about that tiny little baby. That has always stuck with me.

I learned alot about him today at the funeral that I never knew. I know B mentioned that he was really smart, but I didn't know he had a PhD, and many other educational triumphs under his belt. I also didn't know he had served in the Military. I hope to be able to learn more about him. I just wish I had taken the opportunity to learn it from him personally.

I love him, and even though I don't belong in that family anymore. He never would have let anyone know, He loved me, He loved my girls and I couldn't have asked for a better example.

This has been a hard thing.

Update

Here is an update on what is going on at our house. Bailey was released the next day from the Hospital, We now have our own nebulizer which gives Bailey breathing treatments when she needs them. She is starting to return to normal, but still has a terrible cough.

It turns out that she has RSV. Normally it only causes big problems in babies, but she was really having a hard time with it. One thing about RSV is that it is very contagious. Bailey who is so sweet and shares everything has shared her germs with Laira and I, who now have awful colds.

I have to go to work tonight and I am sure I will be sucking down plenty of dayquil to make it through my shift. Laira thinks I am magic since I gave her Tylenol and it made her feel better.

In the mean time we will be pushing PO fluilds , Tylenol Q4 and anything else PRN

Happiest paitent

When Bailey was born I noticed immediately how calm she was, She never really cried. But she did make sounds like a dinosaur. She has always been a peace maker and wants to please everyone. She truly has a heart of gold and is one of the sweetest little darlings I know.

None of this changes when she is sick. I can remember the first time she was admitted to the hospital with Pneumonia, she was obviously sick but still wanted to play and laugh. She has always been happy with whatever her situation happens to be at the time.

So here we are again, in the hospital. She has surprised me with her hot and cold attitudes to people. The Nurse and PCA are worthy of speaking to, but the Respiratory Therapist ( well he did stick a tube down her nose) doesn't even get a nod in his direction. And if you happened to be in the room when her IV was started then you are in big trouble.

While being here they have thrown around a couple of diagnosis. Some more serious than others, such as Cystic Fibrosis, Pneumonia and just plain old Asthma. We are thinking its a combination of Pneumonia and Asthma. Her chest x-ray only showed a small amount of abnormality but we are thinking that we've caught the Pneumonia very early and are going to be able to get rid of it before it can get any worse. She also has some tightening and something else I can't remember what its called but an excess of mucus. Basically she has a really awful cough and sometimes goes into 5 minute coughing fits where she throws up and can't stop coughing. She also has a 102.4 fever and no appetite.

So its just a lot of poking, prodding and waiting.

All the time , determination and patience have paid off. I got a call today from my Phlebotomy boss. I finally get my regular position and I can quit working on the 6th floor.

I submitted my notice to my 6th floor boss today. So as of now I have 2 shifts left there. I love the people that I've worked with there. There are always interesting patients to keep us laughing, or the crazy nights where it feels like everything is going wrong. I have made some of my very best friends working on that floor and it makes me sad to go.

Phlebotomy is a great new opportunity, It is a challenge every time you walk into a room. You never know if that patient is going to have good veins or if you will even be able to get it. I love that about it, it makes me think. And when you miss it just gives you something to improve on. I have made many new friends in Phlebotomy and am excited to be working with them more.

So HOORAY!! for reaching goals.

I hate that its snowing again!

The unoffical word

I am not one to boast about my time spent in the stirrups at the Doctors office and I am not sure anyone really wants to hear about it. However today there is cause for celebration.

I will start with a little back story, I was diagnosed with cervical cancer a year ago, I was suppose to be having 6 month checkups but when I lost my insurance for a while that turned into a year checkup. My Doctor wasn't very happy with me that it had taken so long to get back in but he became very understanding when I explained why.

I have been stewing for a long time about what they were going to find at my next checkup. It's been a couple of weeks and I still hadn't heard from my Doctor so I called yesterday and talked to my favorite Nurse, she told me the results were in and that he had been notified and would let me know soon. And just when I thought I was going to cry cause she wouldn't say anything she said "But everything looks fine"

So for now the unofficial word is: Everything looks fine.

We are having a visitor tonight

Laira has had a loose tooth ever since the first one fell out. Yesterday she was wiggling and wiggling it hoping it was ready to fall out. This morning she comes busting in my room shortly after I climbed in to bed after working all night. She was so excited, her tooth had finally come out. I gave her an exhausted reply and sent her back to bed.

When I really woke up we properlly celebrated by talking about the Toothfairy's visit tonight and taking a couple of pictures.

I can't beleive that she is getting so big, losing teeth, reading and catching on to math. I love her!

yup, this about sums it up

Thanks for the pic Aun

28 years of Denae

Wow, tomorrow I will be 28 years old. It is a bittersweet thing for me, I sit and think of how far I have come and I also thing about all the things i've missed out on.... aka.... regrets.

Today I am choosing to focus on what i've accomplished in my 28 years with 28 things people probably don't know about me.

1. I can bend my fingers back abnormally far

2. I have broken my ankles more times than I can remember.

3. I've had both ankles reconstructed ( they don't break going down the stairs anymore)

4. I don't know what my natural hair color is.

5. I have never been skiing or snowboarding

6. I LOVE yogurt... Red Mango please!!

7. I believe that you can say things better with music than just words alone.

8. I love Movies, all kinds of movies. Except the really scary ones, unless I have someone to cuddle with and to sleep in bed with me for the next month afterwords

9. I am not an animal person

10. I don't like a quiet house, I always have music on somewhere so there is always noise. ( the TV works too)

11. I always dance and sing in the shower

12. My little Sister and I are the same age for almost a month every year.

13. I don't like any kind of Rice-a-roni ( I don't know why and I haven't tried it for years)

14. I have never been east of Denver.

15. I am very ticklish, I giggled all the way through my first pedicure.

16. I have dark green eyes.

17. I don't have a favorite color, it all depends on my mood and what the color is being used for. (but growing up it was purple)

18. I love to decorate cakes, I just wish I were better at it.

19. I sometimes go into recluse mode when I don't leave the house for days.

20. I am in the process of refinishing an old desk that I bought.

21. I move the controller the direction I am trying to jump or what not when I play a video game

22. I hate laundry

23. I have broken both my middle (birdie) fingers at separate times.

24. I can cook well. At least I think I do, my family never complains.

25. I often wish I could go back and re-do high school

26. I have celebrity crushes on Ryan Gosling , Ashton Kutcher and Clive Owen.

27. Every so often I want to get all dressed up for a Ball, like a princess.

28. I have 2 of the most beautiful daughters in the world.

I found this on my friend Paige's blog so I decided to see just how pathetic I am with the things that I have never done.

If its bolded I've done it.



1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland/world
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch-hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain ( Someday I WILL do this)
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Gotten flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets, or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper ( I was 5 I think)
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating ( I know... crazy )
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life (Does working at the Hospital count?)
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a lawsuit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

Looks like I need to travel some more. Maybe I need a different list.

Bryce comes HOME!

We left for the Airport about quarter to 7 and his plane was scheduled to come in at 8 so we got there with about 20 minutes to wait. And that was a long 20 minutes for the kids! But then there he was ! He said he felt like he never left. Its been great to have him home.

Right now he sleeps in the girls room with them since they sleep in the same bed and no one sleeps in Baileys bed. The girls absolutely love it! I'm not sure if Bryce does. Laira makes his bed for him every morning and that really made him laugh the first time she did it. He said that Bailey likes to climb in bed and snuggle with him. I think they are happy to have him home.