Blessings

This past weekend I was so blessed to be able to spend the weekend with my bestest friend Katie. She was at her parents house visiting and stayed over night. We hadn't been together for a while so it was very fun to see her and her wonderful kids again. Her Husband had stayed home so we had lots of time to catch up and tell funny stories. We even ended up having a "sleepover" although there wasn't alot of sleeping involved. With my girls in Arizona I was quite lonely and very thankful for the fabulous distraction the Manning home offered. I am so very blessed to have such a wonderful best friend.

Thanks for letting me be there Katie.. LUFF you TONS!!

Snowday

These Pictures are from quite a while ago but I just hadn't put them up yet. Both the girls were absolutely thrilled that it had snowed and couldn't wait to go play in it. I dug out the snow clothes and we had everything but boots so we made a trip to the store and got boots and a sled.
My Brother Matt helped us play, We made a small sledding run in the back yard. There wasn't alot of snow because of the trees but enough to make it work and fun for the girls

Making snow angels was one of their favorite parts

After making their snowman with Matt

Updates

I know it seems like ages since I have blogged anything, Mostly because it has been. Life has been busy but I also haven't felt like there is much to write. Anyways with Christmas' fast approach I decided that I better put something up.

I have a few funny stories from the girls.

I was out running errands and we didn't have that many so we weren't out for a very long time and both of the girls were whining in the back that they weren't ready to go home and they wanted to go somewhere else, Well we were almost home and Laira said "There is Subway eat fresh, that's another place can we go there" I was laughing so hard. Who knew that commercials were so influential (kidding)

We went to IKEA and Laira and Bailey decided they wanted to go to the play land while I did my shopping. Well when I saw the "you must be taller than" sign I knew we were going to have a problem. The hard thing for Bailey is that she is a very small 3 1/2 and sometimes that proves difficult to handle. Well she stood up and was about 3 inches short she looked the lady in the face and said "let me try again" she walked away took off her coat and went back. She stood on her tip toes and said, "See.. I AM big enough" and yes on her tip toes she was, but sadly I had to tell her she couldn't go in. So very sad and dejected after her valiant effort she slunked away to shop with Mom while Laira got to play.

Lastly, Laira is sick. she NEVER gets sick and on the other hand Bailey is ALWAYS sick and she isn't right now and I think that is hard for her. Laira has 3 medicines she is taking for strep and Bailey has nothing. She keeps telling me that she is sick and will have me look at the out side of her neck at her sore throat. She also thinks she has Pink Eye since my little cousin has it. So I now have a little Hypocondriact 3 year old. I think she is just jealous that Laira is getting all the extra loves and attention and not her.

Things with me are going well, We are trying some new things for my Endometriosis the side effects are not so much fun, I am sick alot of the time, Nauseated and sometimes the room spins but I am hoping that like the doctor said my body will adjust and it will hopefully lessen the effects of the Endometriosis. Otherwise we will have to do some other things like surgery and I am not excited for that. I am still working and I love my job more everyday. The people that I work with are amazing and wonderful teachers. Now I just need to figure out how to go to Nursing school and make it work.

Thank you so much for all of your wonderful love and support. It means a great deal to me to have so many wonderful friends.

ALL our love.

Life back to normal??

Well my sister is home now. With some very strict and ridgid rules. Do I think anything will change? I don't know. Only time will tell.

Question

What would make my life infinitely harder and make me stress more than I feel I am capable of handling?

If you answered.. my incredibly un-smart sister would get in a car accident get herself arrested and thrown in jail becuase she was DUI so that I now inherit another child you would be correct!

This is all I can say on the matter right now.. its as far as my brain will process right now.

Go Fish!

Thankyou Walmart for card games for $1.77! My girls have been obsessed with this game the last couple of days. They love to play it, and when everyone was too busy to play with them today they decided to play alone! It was so adorable! I have great girls!

Brain Dump!

I have so much going on right now that I decided I needed to do what my friend Erin calls a "Brain Dump" and just get it all out.

Work, What can I say about work. Well I LOVE it, Last night I did alot of work on my own and it was fabulous. I am so glad that I love my job so much. Things that I thought I would have a hard time with aren't giving me any troubles at all. The people that I work with are great and even the people who others seem to have a problem with don't seem to have a problem with me.. yet.

Laira, Where to start with her? She is still super smart and super cute but she is really struggling right now. She has started to lie... alot. Her lies are mostly outrageous and easy to spot. but it just bothers me that she feels like she needs to lie. Any suggestions on this?

Bailey, she is still super spacey and super silly. But lately she has been OOZING the Christmas spirit. It cracks me up. She is always picking out toys for everyone else and telling them "good Job" and "high fives" She is a super sweet heart. But she still throws fits and tantrums when she doesn't get her way. She is still the master debater when I ask her to do something and she has other plans.

Me, I am still super fat and super single. (things didn't work out but we are still friends) I went to the doctor yesterday and they think I might have Endometriosis. I am not excited about that at all. I am excited to get to start going to church again. I've been told that I've had a calling waiting for me for a couple months now. I am also glad that I don't have to work during church anymore.

One last thing that is bothering me.. the predicted disappearance of the ex husband in the girls lives again.. not surprised... not happy about picking up the pieces of 2 sad little girls again.. Wish there was something I could do about it.

Family Pictures

These are from a while ago and I never posted them. .... Enjoy!
My Adorable girlies

Bryce thought this pose was super stupid

The Whole Family...

Halloween Pictures

So it turns out that the Memory card reformatted and all the pictures are gone.. My cousin took some pictures so I will see if I can get a copy of them from her.. other wise.. no pics

Tag! I'm it!

Four Places I've Lived

• My parents house in Provo
• My own house in Provo
• Orem
• Mesa, Arizona

Four Jobs I've Had

• Kiddie Kandids Photographer
• Wedding Photographer
• Secretary
• CNA

Four Things I'd Like to do Before I die

• Get married again
• Get my RN
• Travel
• Go on a mission

Four Favorite Desserts

• Pumpkin any thing
• apple crisp
• Ice cream the good kinds
• This caramel and chocolate thing Loralee made for a bridal shower
  

Four Interesting Facts about Me:

• I can bend my fingers all the way back to touch the back of my hand
• I am addicted to reading
• I have broken my ankles at least 10 times
• nothing really beats Meg's Bells Palsy

Four Favorite TV Shows:

• Pushing Daisies
• Kid Nation
• Greys Anatomy
• Moonlight
  

Tag: Andrea, Erin, Adrienne and Amy

Halloween

Ok so I took pictures for Halloween but when I went to get them off of the Memory card there was nothing there. So I am going to have to do some detective work and hopefully get some pics up soon!

Primary Program

This morning Laira had her first Primary Program. She has been so excited for it. I asked her if she had to say anything and she told me she didn't and that she knew all the songs. So this morning she picked out a dress and we even curled all her hair. she looked adorable. She was dying all through the Sacrament. She wanted to go sit on the stand and do the program. She kept telling Bailey.. "It's my program not yours, you have to stay here with Mommy" Bailey was very sad.

Once the sacrament was over Laira and my Dad (he teaches a different class) went up on the stand and took their seats. Laira was beaming she was so excited to be there. She found us and waved enthusiastically. They sang a song and the Sunbeams went first and then her class came to the front. The first little boys said his part and then they put the microphone in front of Laira. This is when I got a little nervous. Because she told me she didn't say anything. Well she looked at the teacher and the teacher whispered her part in her ear and laira looked at all the people and then slowly sank behind the railing on the stand and disappeared. I was laughing so hard I was crying. Then once the music started for the next song she stood up and sang, and she sang the whole rest of the program and cuddled with the boy sitting next to her.. *sigh* What am I going to do with her.

I had alot of people tell me it was the best part of the whole program. Silly Laira.. I love her so much.

Newest Utah Valley Regional Medical Center Employee

I was called this morning and offered a position at the hospital. HOORAY!!!!!!!!! This is something that I have wanted to do for a very long time and finally the day has come and my goal has been reached. It almost doesn't feel real. I went in and did my drug test and had my blood drawn for an antibody titer, then I went to HR and filled out alot of paperwork. They gave me a parking permit and I was free to go. I went up to the 6th floor Med/Surg floor and walked around. Too scared to talk to anyone, but so excited.

I have Orientation all day on the 5th and then PCA training for 2 weeks. I will have my schedule figured out at Orientation when I have lunch with my boss. I know I will work 3 shifts a week, its have of the noc shift from 6 to midnight. Its not the shift I wanted but you have to start somewhere. I am sure if I can get in there and work hard I will be able to have the opportunity to move to a day shift and work full time hours. but for now I am more than content to just have my foot in the door.

Thanks everyone for the wonderful Support!!

The Interview ......................(for Stef)

The interview was interesting. I was surprised at the lack of effort some of the people put forth. I felt very over dressed, I was in a nice suit and looked nice. The men were in shirts and ties and all of the other women were from semi nice to very causal

The other presentations were interesting to say the least. I did my presentation on the importance of hand washing. the others were as follows:

• a lady talked about a recipe and brought cookies

• a lady brought a spinning wheel and wool.. didn't even talk about it.

• a girl talked about buffalo hunting using sentences like "we seen a buffalo"

• a girl talked about her mission

• a guy sang a song while playing his guitar

• a guy talked about himself

• a girl talked about her self

• a girl said I took her presentation, and talked about MRSA (a drug resistant staph infection)

I felt over dressed and over prepared.... I hope I did well. Everyone else had experience working in a care center other than one other girl. So we shall see what happens, I should hear from them by Monday. Keep praying and hopefully I will have a new wonderful job soon. ( and then I can transfer to St.George to go to school if I can get into Dixie) <---that was for you Stef!

Thanks for all the prayers and support. I told my ex about the Dixie plans and he wasn't too happy about it, but he said it was good to be in school. So it sounds like he is supportive so we will see.

Presentations and Interviews... what?

So last night I applied for 2 jobs at UVRMC. I was very surprised this morning to receive a phone call telling me that they wanted me to come in on Monday for a group interview and that I would need to come prepared with a 3 minute presentation on anything I choose. I have done a few group interviews, but never with a presentation. Talking with my Dad he said that they want to see how well I can express and communicate something. He also said that they want to see that I have passion for something. Both my parents suggested that I do my presentation on Photography. While I do have a Passion for it i don't know how to effectively communicate it in 3 minutes. So now I am going to be stressing the whole weekend trying to figure out what to do for my presentation.

any suggestions or helpful hints?

Working

I did my Hospital clinical today and I loved it.. and I found 2 openings and applied for them. so please pray for me.

School is ALMOST over. I am very excited to be close to being done. However my plan isn't working out how I planned. I planned to be able to finish my class and get a job at UVRMC and get ready for Nursing school while I worked there, which they would also help pay for. Well everything works except for UVRMC, they are always hiring .. right? Well apparently not for CNA's right now. I looked when I first started school and they had at least 7 openings. I have been looking for the last 3 weeks and they have 0 openings. I looked at the other openings throughout Utah and there are quite a few. So I have a couple of options and choices.

1- Suck it up and work in Utah county in a care center and Wait on the waiting list at UVSC for the Nursing program. Which I don't even know if I can get into.

2- Move to SLC and work for Primary Childrens or one of the other many hospitals in SL county and then to have to wait for the waiting list for Nursing School at every school in SL county which I don't even know I can get into.

3- Move to St George and work in one of the many CNA jobs available and get right in to the Nursing program at Dixie college which my instructor says is a good program. but be 4 hours away from my family and not know anyone down there.

see big choices and changes. Don't know what to do.

SHOES!

I have a weakness for shoes.. I love them! And it's even funner to buy cute new shoes for my girls. Today we went on a shoe hunt Bailey needed new warm shoes for winter. We started at Shopko and they only had like 3 things in her size.. none of them something I would buy. SO we went to my favorite big box store.. Target! They always have adorable shoes.

I was surprised that they didn't have very many athletic type shoes in Baileys size. I didn't know that 7's were such a hard size to find. We ended up with these. They are adorable and she loves them

They both could have used some shoes. Their feet grow so fast. I know I will be buying Sunday shoes for both of them ASAP! And Laira will need something other than her Crocs that she loves pretty soon. They had a lot of really cute things, but Finding Laira's size seemed to provide another challenge. Laira is a size 11 they had plenty of that size, but I want to buy her 12's so she can wear them longer. But low and behold I couldn't find a 12 in anything I liked. But I did find these and they are so adorable so I am hoping with my next pay check I can get Laira something. YAY for shoes!

Anticipation

This morning I was able to shoot a whirlwind Engagement session. It was mostly a whirlwind because it was starting to rain and the rain progressed as the session went on. We got maybe 15 shots but we were wet and cold and so we decided to give in to the rain. We decided to schedule another shoot if they didn't find one of the 15 that they liked. I was happy to take the pictures. Photography is one thing that I enjoy a lot. I use to hate shooting Engagements and Weddings. I was always jealous of the love shared between the couples and often resented them. "why can't I still have that" was something I asked my self often. I was stuck in a rut of self pity.
Today though I was able to let up and have fun. I was happy for my friend and so glad that she was happy. I looked at their interactions and told my self. "I can't wait to find that" so today I am filled with anticipation. Its been a long 4 years and although I am content with my life now there is still a big piece missing. I know life will be that much more enjoyable when that missing piece is found.

Now there is a new "prospect"! I have had a hand full of relationships in the last 4 years. Some were local some were long distance but they all were lacking. Things are very different now, this guy (we shall call him "prospect" for the time being) has been a friend for some time. Although I think he is painfully shy there is alot of potential for alot more. We spent some time the other night talking about watching baseball and that I don't like to do it. He spent alot of time telling me that there is alot more going on than I think. He said " Do you think if I taught you more about baseball you would like to watch it more?" I said sure and my first baseball lesson started. He went on to teach me a few of the intricate things that were happening, but not too much so he didn't overwhelm me. When I correctly identified a curve ball my heart leapt when he said "I am SO proud of you" I left that night with a standing invitation to come over anytime and the garage code (a coveted thing apparently) although there are some mysteries I need to crack such as the way he will invite me to come sit on the couch and I do and he will get up and sit on the floor leaving me on the couch alone. Or the way he can never sit still long, He is always getting up and walking around or leaving the room. those things perplex me, so I don't know if he is scared of me or just can't sit still.

I would just like to mention that I HATE dating. I hate always worrying about everything! This is kind of a random post of random thoughts!

Happy Un-Anniversary

6 years.

*sigh* thats all I have to say about that

Library story time

Today while Laira was at school Bailey and I went to Story Time at the Library. I met a new friend who is one of the story tellers, and when I told Bailey about it she was very excited to go. So we went and First we went to Toddler time. We learned about the letter D and a great story. Then we picked out some books and she was able to go to the older group. Mommies didnt get to go to that one so she was a big girl and went all be her self. In that class they learned about the letter B (B is for Bailey if you didn't know that) After she got out of class she went up to the Librarian who is in my parents ward so she knew her and said "Can I have a book about B's" Laura thought she was adorable and helped her find her book. We checked out a few books and read them this afternoon.

We really love going to the Library and are going to try and make it a weekly adventure.

Yearly Physicals

So it was time for the girls well checkup's and Laira also needed to have a Physical for school. So we made the appointment almost 2 months ago. And finally today the day arrived.

Here they are before ... they don't have any idea what is coming

SO cute that they wanted to go in together.
WE LOVE Dr. Nielson!
YAY Bailey is finally showing up on the growth charts.. My 3 year old is 27 pounds. Finally! We are so happy that she is in the 10th percentile
Telling the nurse what the pictures are.

Getting blood pressure hugs.
Getting comfy while Dr. Nielson listens to her heart.
She looks very excited. Note the cup, they needed a urine sample. That was fun.
Space cadet Bailey
Look at that grin!

After this the camera had to go away. Bailey was given one shot and Laira was given 4. They were both very brave. It is amazing how stickers can make everything all better. We also found out that Laira needed to get her Iron levels checked and that they had to do that in the lab at the Hospital so, We loaded up and went over. Thankfully Grandpa works there and was able to help Laira hold still. She did so good and didn't cry as much as she did for the shots. She did how ever suck every bit of sympathy out of everyone she could for the rest of the day. Some of my favorite lines I heard were. "The Doctor needed my blood so I had to go to the Hospital" and "Don't touch this arm, Its missing blood and it hurts"

Both of them did Fabulous and I am SOOO happy that Bailey and her Pediasure infused diet is finally allowing her to gain weight. I am so blessed to have 2 wonderful and healthy Children.

Midterm

So I have 15 minutes before I have to pick Laira up from school, drop her off and then head to school. Today we are taking the midterm, I am terrified. I know I know all of the information its just that I never think I can do it. I felt the same way about the GED and it was super easy. I am mad that I waited so long to take it.

anyways.. so any extra prayers and such that I do well on my midterm would be wonderful. I have to get at least 80% to go on to clinicals so that is important.

Much love to all my blog buddies.

Are you Thirsty? ......I am

***** warning*****
This post is VERY long and came about on a boring Sunday afternoon while thinking about my latest "adventure"


Some people who know me well know that I don't start a book unless I have time for it to consume me. There are also books that I choose not to read because they have things in them that I don't necessarily agree with. After seeing the covers and reading dust jackets of the Anne Rice books on my sisters book shelves while bored one day, I decided that I wasn't going to read scary books about Vampires. Over the last couple of years I was surprised with the overwhelming amount of people trying to get me to read one particular book. Usually peoples recommendations are so varied that there are so many things to chose from. But this one book kept coming up again and again. I was also surprised by the different callibers of people recommending the book. Some were people who I didn't trust at all and others were people that I held in the highest esteem. It wasn't until one of by best Young Women Chums recommended the book and then said that a mutual friend from High School was also CRAZY about it. I decided to ask more questions about the book. She told me everything I needed to know and I was also pleasantly surprised that there were 3 of them. (I am a sucker for a series) fast forward a couple of weeks. I was killing time between Class and my shift at work so I decided to go into Deseret Book. (big mistake) I walked in and the first thing I saw was this amazing cover.
I knew these were the books that everyone was telling me about. I picked up Eclipse I read the back and surprised to realize that it was about Vampires. I fought a small battle inside my head. For one .. was I not in Deseret book? For two... after reading the small blip about the author ..did she not go to BYU? for 3 did not almost everyone I know tell me that it was an amazing book and that I would love it? I decided that those 3 things were enough for me to hope that it wouldn't be a disappointment. so I picked up a copy of Twilight and made my way to the register. It was a paperback edition so it wasn't going to cost too much of my meager budget but it was by far a splurge. I went back to my car and went to work where I put the book in the bottom of my back pack and there it sat for probably about 2 more weeks.

So last Wednesday after a particularly hard day I was sitting around. Depressed. The girls were in bed and I was suppose to be reading a chapter for class the next day but I really didn't want to. I wanted to escape, to a new world, a new life. and then the thought occurred to me... I wanted to read. I dug excitedly into my back pack and pulled out the glossy covered book. I looked at the picture on the cover hoping that this book would be able to take me away, take me on an adventure. so I began.

I wasn't really surprised at how quickly I melted into the world of Forks and Bella Swan. I was surprised at how late it was when i looked at the clock. It was almost 3 am. I knew I had 2 little alarm clocks that were going to wake up in 4 hours or less. I needed to sleep. I was shocked that I was at least halfway through the book. so I reluctantly put my book mark into the book and went to sleep. When I woke up I had Edward on the brain. I wanted nothing more than to dive back into my book and just melt away. Alas I had other things that needed to be done. I fed the girls breakfast and get them ready for the day. I should have read my chapter for school but I didn't. I didn't even get my self ready. I couldn't stand it any longer I had to get back to the book. so I settled the girls in front of their favorite movie and started to read. Again time flew by, I looked at the clock and it was 11:30 and my class started at 1:00 . I quickly jumped in and out of the shower, pulled on my scrubs and was ready for class in record time. I still had some time to read before I left. For the rest of the day I was sneaking in reading anywhere I could. Before class.. during the break in class... In the car at stop lights. I also knew that I would soon be finished with the book and want to go on the the next.. I was addicted. I had an hour till I had to be at work and so I decided to head to the Library. I walked in purposefully and went to the place where the books should have been.... there was nothing there. I can't say I was surprised I knew that Eclipse had just come out and so there was a whole new frenzy of reading happening. I decided to go to the computer and put my name on the waiting list. Surely I couldn't afford to go and buy 2 hard back books. as I added my self to the waiting list a message came up.. You are number 260 on the waiting list for this book. add and continue or exit? my jaw hit the floor. I had underestimated the impact of these books. dejected I left the library. As I left I walked past the new "self serve" Hold wall of books. scattered through the many books were numerous copies of Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse. It took every ounce of control I had to not take the books and run.. Okay not really but ... anyways.

I went work and continued to read through my 3 hour shift. I finished the book around 8:30 and got ready to close the store. I vacuumed and thought of how I could get the next book sooner. (since is does happen to leave at a rather unpleasant cliff hanger if you read the first chapter of the next book) I decided to go to Wal-Mart, they have everything and usually cheaper than anywhere else. I drove to Springville and went to the book section and alas it wasn't there.. I was heart broken. I decided to drive to Orem. again I was let down by there lack of books. Apparently you can only get books at Wal-Mart on the release day. So I went home and went to bed.

The next morning we woke up early we all got ready and were going to go pick up my paycheck. we had a few other errands to run and I finally gave up the battle and decided to buy the books. It was so few and far between that I found books that consumed me so fully and that I did something so fun for myself. It was going to be a big splurge but I decided it was worth it. so after our first errands we went to Deseret Book yet again. I think we were in the store a total of 2 minutes. After we left I knew I wanted to go home and read. The girls were tired and I knew the would just want to come home and watch a movie. I was excited. So we came home and I read.. I read ... and I read.... I worked the night shift at work .. and I read while I was there... I came home and read... then I slept.. I got up and went to work and I read there... I came home played with the girls had a BYU BBQ with a big group of family. The whole time wishing I were reading. Finally 8 pm came and I put the girls to bed and I began to read the last of the 3rd book. I finished around midnight.

after I was finished I was furious. I couldn't believe that she would leave the story there.. so undone so unfinished. I thought there were only 3 books. I laid in bed and tried to sleep but I was so upset that I gave up. I decided to get on the computer and read the FAQ's on the authors website figuring other readers had to feel the same way.

There was going to be several more books.. I was delighted .. Now I have to wait a year for the next book. It gives me plenty of time to re- read all the books and get all the details down packed.

Wow.. this wasn't meant to be a mini novel but I just wanted to share my enthusiasm for these marvelous books. Thanks for taking part in my new obsession.

First day of School

Laira has been talking about going to school ever since I was laid off in June and begging to go back. Finally the time came to start school again. Here are some Pictures from her first day.Standing out side her class

Playing in the Sand during outside time

Showing me her dirty sand hands

Playing the "dot com"

Tracing letters

It was a fabulous day! She cant wait to go again on Monday when she gets back from the wedding.

Teenagers and Disrespect. The life and times at O'Hana Bags

While working here at the mall, The cool place to hang out on a Friday night if you are of the Teenage variety. I have encountered many teenagers. And I am saddened to say that so many of them are disrespectful and rude to the point of there being a shock factor involved with some of my run-ins. I have had more than a few people tell me I need to blog these so... Here you go .. enjoy.

Tonight. While selling one of the beloved bags I went in the back to load the bag onto a hand truck to pull it out for the customer. When I came out the man who purchased the bag says to me

"Umm do you have a mop? that guy over there seems to have had a spill"

I told him that I would have it taken care of after he was taken care of. In the mean time the teenager who made the mess comes up to me and interrupts the directions I am giving the person who bought a bag and says that he spilled and is it alright if he leaves. I told him I would be right with him. As I go over to inspect the mess I see that he not only has made the Nile river in font of the store but he has spilled quite a bit of said drink on the bag its self. I explain to the boy that I cannot sell this cover now and that he is responsible for paying for the cover.. He laughs and says..
" Yeah right.. how much is it?"
I tell him the price
"154.95"
he swears loudly calls me a b**** and walks out of the mall.. leaving me standing there flabbergasted in the middle of the Nile.

For a while my brother who works here in the day time would bring his Nintendo Wii to work so that he had something to do while he was here. He would often leave it for the night shift to also play with if so desired. These next two experiences pertain to the Wii..

Often times kids just come in and sit in the bags and are content watching a movie. Well this particular day these two Hispanic "hoodlums" have you came in and were being annoying. one asks.
"Can I play the Wii"
"no"
"why not" he replies
" because its not yours"
"right that is why I am asking'
"well its not mine either so the answer would have to be no"
"its because I am Mexican isn't it"
*jaw falls to the floor*



Another day I went in the back to count inventory. I heard some people come into the store so I hurried to finish what I was counting and head back up to the front.. When i come to the front I see about 5 or 6 teenage boys. One of which had come behind the counter grabbed the Wii controllers and was playing the Wii.. I immediately told him to leave.

The third story shows the sheer stupidity of teenage boys

A boy comes in and flops down on his stomach on a bag and pulls out his zippo and starts lighting it and closing it repeatedly..

"Hey, Don't do that on the bags"
"what ... this??"

He lights the lighter and holds it close to the bag

"Hey, seriously, don't be stupid"

" I am not stupid you are stupid B****"

I asked him to leave... and he did.

I have been called a B**** so many times at work I should make a name tag. I am seriously bothered by the complete disrespect that is the teenage society. I hope and pray that I can teach my daughters to behave better and treat people with more respect.

Misc. Ramblings!

Again so many things are swimming in my head that I have to write some of them out or I think I may explode. So many things are changing and happening all at the same time. Some are wonderful some are causing stress.

First, Laira was "accepted" into preschool. She starts a week from Wednesday and doesn't stop talking about it. At church on Sunday she was telling everyone about her "new school". She will go Monday - Thursday from 8:30 to 12:00 so yes her non-morning mother is going to have to adjust. But it is well worth it because she is going to love going to school. Her teacher came and visited us last week and gave her a box of crayons and she has been coloring like a mad woman ever since.

Bailey is still a crazy spacey child. My Dad calls her twinkle toes because she dances where ever she goes. Well she was looking through the shoe basket the other day and what did she happen upon... but Laira's old cowboy boots. And they just happen to be her size. She has decided to wear them everywhere she goes. like Church yesterday and the dentist today.. good times. I am just glad that everyone thinks its so cute.

Recently my sister came home and declared that she now has a boyfriend. I was excited for her and then the realization hit me. I am the only one in my family with out a significant other. How pathetic. For me .... Meeting someone new is always fun. But I always seem to forget the awkwardness that comes with trying to get to know a total stranger. I use to be such a big flirt.. I could keep any conversation going. Now I feel like I am losing my touch and am very boring to converse with. However. I have met someone who is fantastic to talk to. I feel like we have alot of the regular things in common (movie preferences and music) I look forward to hearing from him and talking to him. Sometimes I find my self thinking about him and not being able to shake it. This is all fine and dandy .. and scares me ALOT. That is all I am going to say about this matter

No for the stress. I think the Alternator on my car is dead. It wont start... again..... that is all I can type about that with out crying. *sigh*

School is still fabulous. I can't wait for class and I love learning. I am just hoping that I am absorbing things the way that I need to be so I can not only preform the tasks but also pass the written test. I am sure if I stick to it and keep studying I will do fine.

Well I suppose I am out of things to write about for now. I hope that someone actually reads this. and if you do that you actually find it entertaining. If you do read .. leave me a comment.. I would love to know who reads.

I hope you are all having a great day.

SWEATERS!!

Another thing about fall that I love is SWEATERS!!

I love them. I love how they are so fun and unique. I love that you can find them in so many styles and colors.

I have my eye on these 2 sweaters to add to my always growing collection of them.

I am a big fan of cable knit sweaters.

It's Starting!!!

I don't know if you can see it in the picture or not, But the leaves have started to change. I am soooo excited! I LOVE FALL! I love the crispness in the air, the flamboyant colors that are everywhere. All of the food that comes around with the Harvest. The temperature finally cools down enough to go and do things out side.

One thing that comes with fall and being out side is PUMPKIN LAND! My girls love going and following the trails around the garden and then getting to the animals and the playground. The best part is picking out the pumpkins at the end. This is our picture from last year. Laira talks about it all the time. We actually drive by Pumpkin land quite often. So we never stop hearing about it.

Another thing that I look forward to is the Holidays that come during the fall season. Thanksgiving is one of my favorites. Its a time where most of my extended family gets together. Some I haven't seen for a very long time. I love my family and I love being with them. Our Thanksgivings consist of the regular spread of food . We usually hold it at a church since there are so many of us. So after dinner we usually play volleyball or Basketball. We also just hang out and play lots of different board and card games. Its something that I look forward to every year. We must never forget to mention my Mom's amazing dutch apple pie. She has made the pie every year for as long a I can remember because no one will let her make anything else.

So yes. the colors that are beginning to pop on the mountains are very exciting for me.

Worst Blogger ever!

ok, so I am the worst Blogger ever! I always feel like I have nothing important to say! My friend Erin does something on her blog called "Brain Dump" and sometimes that is what I feel like doing, Although it always seems to come out as whining. I don't want to be a whiner. So I again sit at work with nothing to do, Ok almost nothing. I really should be studying but today for some reason I am procrastinating. Someone told me that once you procrastinate you've already lost. So I guess I've lost.

School is going great ( other than the procrastinating) I had a talk with my instructor about the lady in the class who disrupts everything. The other day we had a sub and while she was there the "lady" as she will be known, Made several derogatory remarks and offended several people my self included. I went home from class and couldn't shake it. I discussed the situation with my Dad and he suggested going to Student Services and trying to see what could be done from there. Well, it turned out that Thursday the lady didn't come to class and our instructor had a lecture planned on tardiness and classroom respect. Both of which the lady was guilty. So on our break I started talking with the instructor and asked what she thought I should do in the situation and didn't give any specific names. She told me she knew who I was talking about and that she thought she was alone in being bothered by her. Several other classmates came into the room during our discussion and told of how hard it is to focus on their studies when she is constantly battling for classroom control. Needless to say it needed to be discussed and now that she knows that the lady bothers us all and causes attention problems she is going to have to put a stop to it. So hopefully class time will be a more enjoyable experience. *sigh*


My girls were invited to go with my parents camping. My Mom has an OBSESSION loves to go, she calls it "Treasure Hunting". But the most exciting part of it all was that they were taking the *drum roll* Camper Car. Ever since my parents came and visited us in Arizona and brought their truck and camper for Geo caching, and were going to something like a convention in the form of camping. Well my LairaLaira has been obsessed with going camping and going in the camper car. All day Thursday she was asking when my Mom was going to be home so they could go. Once on the phone to my Mom about 11 am she said " You are almost going to be late" not knowing that my Mom had to work until 4. She bounced around the house all morning. My Dad and I had to take her to get some tennis shoes since the ones from last year are now too small. When we put them on her feet she said. "ok.. stand back I have to check and see if they are fast enough" and she gave them a good test run. After she declared that they were indeed fast enough we bought them. I think she was the happiest girl alive.


I am excited for my plans after work. There is a pot luck get together of a group of people of whom I know few. I am excited to go and meet new people and make new friends. I love to be social. I love to talk, and share life experiences. I am grateful that I have opportunities to go and have fun.

I am hoping that life is treating you all well. And I will try to blog more even if I don't think I have anything special to blog about.

Till next time!

Denae's Ramblings

So, its time to blog again, and I have a lot of things on my mind so I will just write about them.

Monday I was served with a court summons. I was flabbergasted. It turned out that when Laira broke her collarbone back in October the ER doctors people never billed the insurance. So they sent it to collections and from there to an Attorney. How did it get that far you ask..? The answer is, I have no idea. When I called the insurance company they said that they had the insurance information on file and they can prove it because the hospital filed their claim. So they told me to just call the UVPB ( Utah Valley Physicians Billing) people and tell them to file the claim. I called and they tried to tell me they never had the information and I told them that they did and that the insurance company is very upset that this has happened. Then I told them I was very upset that this had happened and that I DEMAND it be taken off my credit. We will see what happens.

So I've moved. I forwarded my mail. There were one or two days of mail that didn't quite make it into the forward.. and my landnazi's are holding on to it.. I have called them and emailed them several times to let them know that I have important things in the mail that I need. She just tells me that she has forwarded it on.. but I haven't received anything. The only reason I am upset is because my insurance cards for August are in there. I cant take myself or the kids to the doctor with out them. Laira needs to have a Physical for Headstart Preschool and also go to the Dentist. so anyways I am frustrated.

School is going well. I really enjoy it and the instructor is GREAT! I am soaking up the information as quickly as I can and am always thirsty for more. I hope my thirst for this knowledge continues on for a very long time.

Last thing on my mind is a big one. Brittain, (my ex husband) and I went through a period of a couple of months back in March of being great friends. We actually hung out quite a bit and things were great! that is until I told him that I wanted to readjust the child support since he had a great job and makes tons of money and I had just been laid off. He flew off the handle and well he wont talk to us ( any of us) and hasn't seen the girls or made any acknowledgment of having daughters for 3 months now. I get so frustrated when he gets mad at me and takes it out on the kids. Its not me he is hurting its them. He has told me recently that he gets no joy from being a father like everyone else does. he says when he has them they don't want to be there and he doesn't want them there, He doesn't know how to discipline and they don't listen to him and so on and so forth. and I just had to tell him that he is the one who chose to make it that way by 1) leaving us. and by 2) floating in and out of their lives and not keeping things consistent. Its hard enough for kids to have divorced parents but its even worse when on parent chooses to be so unstable. If he has been a consistent parent and taken the girls on his weekends like he is suppose to every time things would be routine for the girls and not an "interruption" to their lives. I just hope that someday he grows up and realizes what he is setting him self up for failure. His children know whats going on and when he chooses to "check whats happening this weekend" and being to "busy" for the kids over just taking the girls and spending time with them . That they are going to know he didn't want to be with them.

Anyways enough of that. Regardless of my venting I am very very happy with my life and I love my children more than anything else. Someday when I meet someone special he will be able to complete our little family and make life complete.

I hope that all of you are finding joy in your life's endeavors !

until next time... All our love!!

First day of School

Today was my first day of class. It went well, I love my instructor. For the most part the other students in the class are great as well. There is however one lady who I think I am going to struggle with. She is a school teacher, she taught for 16 years and all the sudden decided to go into nursing. That is all fine and dandy but She is having a hard time giving up control of the classroom. She is often talking over the instructor and making false claims of information that the instructor quickly corrects.

Other than that one lady I think the course is going to be wonderful. I already have an assignment other than just regular reading. I have give a presentation on Myocardial Infarction's, Congestive Heart Failure and Hypertension. Basically Heart Attacks. Everyone was given some disease for their presentation. It will be interesting to learn about this subject for me because my Dad has had a few run ins this these problems.

I am really hoping that I enjoy the course and that I am able to continue on and get my RN. WHOOHOO for me and finally getting an education I can use.